I cant sleep over him and i up on this all nite going mad waitin for someone tell me what to do its turture?

you are scared understandable you have made the decision to go to america and now looking for an excuse to stay because its scarey being on your own I guess that you wont be alone for long the yanks love irish folk and traditions and you will soon fit in there sure like an ol glove as for the guy well wont he be sorry when you go and make a big success of your life he had his chance and blew it now stop your snivelling and go pack them bags have a great time over there